Falling in Love

I quit my first ministry job a couple weeks ago.
Yeah tell me about it; I didn’t see it coming either.

I'm the worst when it comes to making decisions (and anyone who knows me knows that), so this was not an easy decision for me to make. I’ve been told I’m good at aiming but never at pulling the trigger, but here I am with a loud ringing in my ears all of a sudden....a bit shell shocked....

It's easy to look at what I did and think I didn’t learn anything and only took the easy way out by quitting. The good news, though, is that nothing is or has been wasted through this experience. Did I journal a few days ago about having some regret moving here? Sure did. Do I also have a lot of regrets about things I should’ve done or said, and things I shouldn’t have done or said? Absolutely, but I can’t change those moments. Not that I would want to because nothing about those moments has been wasted either.

It has been a whirlwind couple of weeks, and I feel peace about my decision. One thing I'm learning about this new season and new year is that 2018 is about falling in love for me; predominantly with Jesus, but nonetheless falling in love.

Falling in love with the reason I felt a calling to do ministry in the first place. Falling in love with the way I feel when talking about Jesus clicks for people, when they get it, when their face lights up because mine is :) Falling in love with risk taking, and the way faith makes me do insanely crazy things with purpose, and on purpose, for the glory of God. Falling in love with adventure and letting God take me places I've never gone before physically, spiritually, maybe even emotionally. Falling in love with writing again and seeing the way my scattered brain works its way out in tweets and blog posts and everything in between. Falling in love with deep and meaningful relationships that come out of the most random places, or over cups of tea and coffee.

Falling more in love with the words "Girl Almighty" permanently inked to my body because that is who God has created me to be, and not shying away from that (sorry mom 👀).

I don't know what this new year looks like for you, but I hope it will be a year of discovery for you too. So here's to 2018.

Here's to falling in love.